sick... im sick. feeling better though. A friend passed by and cooked soup with ginger and chicken... nice. ate a lot. vomited after. Nicccccce. NOT. still feeling better than when i woke up this morning. i even manage to wash clothes. And. sidenote: im lovin the mac. and no. not mcdonalds. lol. i love you. kiss.

I love this song... it's just... so... apt... sometimes i go crazy, with this... feelings... extremes. but im riding it out... i dont know if my dreams are ever gonna come true... i dont know - the whole point and logic... but like would be pretty boring if it was all logical... but then - no emotional rollercoasters like this. I hope in the end it fixes itself... May is coming soon... im gonna be there... but its not the place i want to be with you... but for now... we'll ride it out.

if we could sit together a moment
 and talk forever just to pass the time
 i would smile as the shivers and chills run down my mind
 while your eyes are locked on mine
 spine instead of mind
 we'll fill the metro skies
 with country air
 and when you close your tired eyes
 i'll meet you there

when im alone at night
 i dream you paint the stars
 against the twilight
 i wish your silhouette
 would always stay there
 in the stars
 when i am fast asleep
 i dream and see you floating high above me
 dream, and i'll carry you away
 because i have wings
 angel wings

I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch.
I love your warm smile
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring
To my life every day.
I love you today
As I have from the start,
And I'll love you forever
With all of my heart.


by blondeskicksass

 im an angel who's free
 but trapped inside a cage
 i can do whatever i want
 but im locked
 inside something
 that only one person can unlock
 and i know
 it's you
 i just know it...

I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

jason graham

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
in special world, where we belong

I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so beautiful and hazelblack.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.

 I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.

 I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

i have chosen a different path... full of potholes and... twists lol... wth, i mean, simple would be boring right? just a long straight road? conforming to society - always being normal...
although this time... it is like... really... way out of normalcy...
it fills me with love....so much love... but also sorrow, pain and confusion...

I wonder how this is all gonna turn out... sooner or later... will i yearn for simplicity... will i want more... will guilt engulf me and bring me to madness?

"I was struck all in a heap" - Richard Sheridan

God. i long to just... be myself and express all the feelings thats bottled inside...

Hmmm... i am in pain right now... physically, emotionally and mentally...
but that which doesnt kill you makes you stronger...
so... ill go deep. let's go deep.

this road i chose... its gonna hurt lots of people... its gonna disappoint a whole whole lot of people... and i understand them... maybe they'd understand us?

im already saying sorry for that, but i am not regretting anything... and i wouldnt change anything..  im sorry for the disappointments that youll feel - the anger, disillusionment, shock and regret...

but im happy. selfishly so.

ill check the road once in awhile... and try to update it. now though its uphill... and the later its just gonna be a straight one for a couple of months, with lots of trees and flowers cause its spring... then its gonna be crooked and like... lots of turns where i need to decide which to take... thats how i foresee it right now though...

i love you.

"its something unpredictable, but in the end its right... i hope you had the time of your life..."

0931am

my dad is watching Larry King Live, interviewing some surgeon about what Michael Jackson has done to his face.

? When Michael was alive, obviously he didnt want to talk about it. Now that he's dead, its ok to talk about it? He's dead. He cant defend himself anymore about what theyre saying... ? good or bad, we dont know if its the truth or not, cause the person theyre talking about is DEAD.

My god. When does it end. I for one, am not watching it. Im not gonna add to the viewer list theyre monitoring. AAAARRRGHHHH, it just makes me so angry, its like unfair, if they really wanted to talk about his face - have the guts to talk about it when he was alive, have the guts to confront him and ask him about it, and if he doesnt want to answer then respect it. Its his own business, its his Face, its not your face or his children's face, its his. His money. His face.

MANNNN. Suger (swedish for suck)

The thing is a lot of people are gonna watch this, and ASSUME what theyre talking about is true, its just... ahhhh. i dont know.

But does privacy end once your dead? Maybe thats why he wanted to live forever.
sigh.

Respect. Peace. Love.